Best Laid Plans... back on track.

So... if you've been reading elsewhere, our trip has been canceled since Bug is sick. I've whined everywhere else so why not here? No. I won't. What I will say is that even with the plans to have a relaxed few days, eating with moderation while I was away, now I know I need to be ON TRACK here at home. Since last night and the decision not to travel, I've felt sorry for myself and well, that won't get me anywhere. M@Ms are yummy but they're not medication. Yeah, so I've eaten only a few but I know how THAT path can spiral.

So this morning, it's oatmeal for breakfast, with bananas and milk, and a cup of coffee. I've had my vitamin and a couple of glasses of water already. I will exercise tonight. And supper is already on track to be healthy, not indulgent. I am still thinking that moderation should trump restriction when eating anytime, but if this is going to be my life and not a diet, I have to make allowances for when I'm disappointed because things didn't turn out the way I had hoped, and let myself feel instead of trudging agonizingly through. Allowances but not complete disruption. That is the goal.

I didn't exercise last night. I truly felt like I was going to be sick. It was a stressful evening getting Bug to the doc, not getting to sit down and eat supper (not that I would have as she puked all over me and her) and making the decision to cancel our trip. So I sat on the couch, drank my water and cheered on the folks on The B!ggest L.oser. Wow, does Jerry ever remind of my Dad... I was in tears watching him work so hard and then getting sent home. I sure understand the decision...it was the compassionate one, and his after shots were absolutely amazing. I know the change that can happen with 80 pounds lost... a life can change completely. I can't wait to see the final update for both of them.

There's something else I want to talk about but I'll save it for another post. Maybe this afternoon. We'll see...