I feel like I'm in that oatmeal commercial.

You know the one, don't you? If you don't, there's all these people who walk around trying to go 1about their daily life with a scale chained to their ankle. The funniest one to me (although it isn't really that funny of a commercial) is the one where she's trying to do aerobics. But that's what I feel like... like weight and what I eat and that I need to exercise is always on my mind.

Can I eat that?

I'm hungry.

No, I better not because I might need to eat a little more later.

Yes, that's about 1/100th of the things that go on in my head every day. I want it to be less that way. I want to enjoy food and exercise without thinking about it every second. That's what I want.

That said, it's been another good day. I ate right, drank my water and did 30 minutes (250 cal) on the treadmill. I'm going to take a shower, have a nonfat chai tea and go to bed. I will have reached all my goals with the exception of not having some time to read yesterday... I wrote alot so maybe that counts too. yes, it does. I met all my goals for this week and I weigh in tomorrow morning when I get up.

First week of the rest of everything down. I'm tired. i feel deprived. But I am in control and hoping that discipline will lead to good habits and freer, healthy living.