No Go Weigh In

Weigh in was a no-go this morning since my cycle started. That means at least 2+ pounds for a few days. I did have a good week exercise-wise... four times on the treadmill! Eating was touch and go. I am so very aware of how stress affects my discipline when eating and feel like I make that an excuse when I don't eat everything perfectly, but it is what it is. I cannot sit here and stress about stressing about food. I am working on it. I am aware. I refuse to get frustrated as I am making progress and that is what matters to me.

I will assume that I maintained for the week. And hope this cycle isn't too bad. The iron supplements are definitely affecting my digestive system, at least I'm assuming that is what the problem is. Each morning is hard... and I hope that soon, my body adjusts and that the supplements are doing their job. I sure hope so. I don't feel much better energy wise even though I've been going to bed around 10pm each night, which is an hour earlier than normal. It's about as early as it is going to get. I just keep hoping that my energy eventually catches up eventually.

My foot appointment is Tuesday. I'm anxious, mostly because I don't want him to say "we can find nothing wrong" when my foot hurts, as does my whole left side of my left leg, especially after I've exercised. I'm also anxious because surgery is a potential, and the timing of that stresses me out. I want to be better before summer so it would have to be VERY soon, as in the next month if it's going to heal before we start spending every day, all day outside. But that is completely out of my hands. I have to stop being anxious about it... sigh.

But you know what? This week has been a good one for remembering that I am alive and for the most part, well and able to live the life I want. Yes, I struggle with the strain of all these niggling health issues but I'm not struggling with living. I lost a good friend to cancer this week. She was almost 43. I can live grateful that cancer is not a part of my struggle. And I can live motivated to be as healthy as possible, to do what I can to have the best and longest life possible. It hit me again that it is more than about a number on a scale. It is about lifelong health. For me and for my family.