I'm back. It's been another six weeks of maintenance. At least I have that... I've stayed under 170 which was ultimately my first goal. I just didn't think I'd be maintaining for this long, or at all, until I reached my hoped for goal. But circumstances change things and I refuse to feel guilty about it. I've lived under the weight of guilt over my weight and eating habits for way too long. I need to someway, somehow start believing what people say, that I look good.
So... since I last wrote here, lots has happened. I turned 41. I finished completely painting the interior of our house (among other fix ups), listed, showed (33 showings in 30 days...that is ALOT of cleaning!) and sold (conditionally for now!) our house, and bought another one that we hope to move into before the middle of July. I've taken two road trips, one Mother's Day weekend for a wedding and then celebrating with Hubby's Mom at the family farm. And another just this past weekend with my sister and her family who flew here from Kansas City. So life has been just that... life, and busy. And good. And I haven't been tracking or exercising regularly but I have been walking from time to time, working in the garden and chasing kiddos. So I'm active.
But things are changing... I have to change. I haven't been able to write yet about my last gynie appointment. It wasn't good. I've been stewing about it but mostly waiting yet again for another test, this time a pelvic ultrasound, that won't happen until September. Joy, the waiting... that seems to be all I do. But I am committed to writing down what DocD, Hubby and I discussed about my option for finally treating my endometriosis, well, as finally as it can be treated until I go into menopause. That will come, hopefully soon.
That precancerous mole??? A general surgeon took off more sample and I go tomorrow for the final check up. I have quite a pretty scar on my shoulder to show for it. And I have bi annual skin checks from now on.
In the followup on my iron levels, I was barely (like one or two points) within normal. I have to keep taking iron pills until I can get the endo stuff taken care of. It isn't going to change, only get worse unless I can get my endometriosis under control. But hey, I'm a tad normal in one area!
As for my leg, it continues to become more and more of a problem, not just in the foot, but in my whole left leg. It, especially my hip, basically hurts all the time. The massage therapist has done her best but she thinks that nothing will really change until my foot is taken care of. And I'm working on a chiropractor appointment (I don't really like them) to see if the hip pain might be related to sciatica, which would just be a problem related to my foot making my whole leg off kilter. I continue to try to stay active and most of the time, once I'm walking in a good rhythm, I can deal with the ache. But I usually pay for it at night while I'm trying to sleep. But I don't want to stop trying. I am adding pilates back into my weekly routine in hopes that more stretching and strengthening will help me get through this. MRI is mid-July with follow-up appointment the second week of August. I am hoping that the doc will have some suggestions for treatment.
And I finally had my mammogram!!! It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. The tech was really good and let me know everything that went on. She took four views. I suppose DocH will contact me with results in the next few days. It's good to have that test over for the year. That will be an annual thing.
And I went to the dentist and got a clean bill of health. And Bug went too, and so did she! That felt good not to have to have any follow-up for once. There is some good news!
Overall, honestly, this all just really feels like a working through this all... I do believe and hope that by this time next year I will be better than ever. I have to go through all this, face it all, in order to get where I want to be. I won't neglect things any longer.
All that said, I'm back to trying to lose a few pounds and get physically strong for all that is ahead. That is my goal... I have to make the most of this time of waiting and prepare my body for what is ahead.
So that's an update... I hope I'll be able to be here more often now.
